A story of love Shell on the beach

She looked at the people who are with laughter and loud conversation gets out, then she saw as a bride in a white beautiful dress of the Greek type, barely out of the car, it was evident that she was in the position, the month of the seventh, from next door, her fiance was in a hurry. He was wearing a black suit, slim body, high. Victoria noticed that he was very similar to her beloved.

She looked closely, the groom was not just like, he was by Igor, yes, it was him. Igor, with a smile, so happy, took his bride in his arms and passionately, as once Victoria kissed her. It was a nightmare, it is such even in the most terrible dream would not have survived. From her hands dropped a pack of cigarettes and lighter, with a crash, banged on the asphalt, she hastened to pick it up, tears ran down his cheeks.

Victoria raised her eyes again to make sure that this is really it. Their eyes met, Igor hastily turned away, took the bride's hand, kissed it, and they hurried to the car, which is near the youth poured champagne. Victoria did not know what to do to escape was stupid, she wanted to roar out loud, but it might be noted, it was impossible to stand up, legs like lead zalilis.

She just sat there and waited for it all to end. Her heart ached so badly, as if it stuck ten knives. Close to Victoria sat an elderly woman who came from a happy crowd. She adjusted her shoes and placed on - it is more convenient. At first, the woman looked at the couple and occasionally threw a look at Victoria, then she looked at the Tories, and said,

-Beautiful Couple, do not they? Victoria was still hurt by these words, and she barely managed to say

-Yes very. Tip them and love. The woman smiled

-I Wish I can not have a drink with them, my heart hurts. And then, I would not miss her. Victoria decided that this is the last chance, sent by God, so that it all figured out. She decided not to miss it, and said,

-Navernoe They met for a long time, just take that important step. The woman's face became sad little.

-Well no. There's a strange story came out. I aunt of the groom ...

-Tamara Nikolaevna, go, climb in the car shouted a young man from a red car In general, I quickly say, but then I have to go. The woman hung the bag on his shoulder.

-I Was the brother of the groom, twin, he died of cancer, his last request was that he married his pregnant girlfriend. Here they met after his death almost two months, and now painted, because the baby can not grow up without a father. Cheek woman gave way to tears.

-They Were so fond of each other, a real brotherly love. Igor long departed after the death of his brother, so that there is waste, he still has not moved away from such a blow. Victoria, fell into a stupor, when she came to, she clapped her on the shoulder, saying,

-Girl That with you? You feel bad?

Tamara Well, now we'll leave without you, is again a voice of the driver. Looking at the woman, said Victoria

Yes, yes, all right, just stuffy today. Go, and then you name the second time. And, you know, without love, pregnancy, marriage, as a rule, do not stay long.

-Do They hold, it is his duty, he would never betray his brother, dosvidaniya girl. Said Tamara, small steps and hurried to the car.

-Bye. Victoria 'said a sad voice, the woman did not hear it. She lit another cigarette, his head was torn from the shocking news. Igor Why she did not told about a twin brother, a serious disease of the girl.

Victoria was in turmoil, it is understood that the time Igor did not tell her about all of this, so he just did not like it. He originally wanted to just play around with it and quit. For him it was just a subject, a cloth with which it was possible to escape from the hustle and bustle, cares and problems.

Victoria did not remember as got to the house, how many have already smoked, and for a while forgot herself. Barely moving his feet, she wanted only one thing is death. In that light, it will be happier than this, no matter where it will be in heaven or in hell.

In both cases, it will be much better than here on Earth, where all betray each other, where relatives and friends left her, and where she is all alone and nobody needs, which gave her the one to whom she gave half of his heart. Now it does not, there is only a shadow.

Despite all the humiliation and the pain caused her to Igor, she still loved him, loved all his wounded heart and tormented soul. How could she give it to another, if she can not live without him. It is no longer in his life, and, therefore, not in his. Life for her now, it is a waste of time, why should she live, for whom only the death of the soul will heal, but there it is free and it will not hurt.

The next morning, she poured herself a strong coffee without sugar, incorporated favorite song, went to the internet, lit it, and began to look for sites suicide. Victoria firmly decided that he would do a suicide, and no one can prevent it, no one now to talk sense.

She found a forum in which a man was interested in how best to die. Tips were different, someone wrote that need to swallow pills, someone pushed an autopsy veins, someone said to drink vinegar, had a lot of options. From reading all shivers ran through her body, and her hair stood on end.

Having read a lot of different information and stories of suicides, she made the decision as this will leave a dull and gray life, which betrayed her favorite people. She decided to drown himself, this option seemed to her best, despite his terrible description of one of the users of the site, which wrote the following -Utoplenniki That happens to you, look closely.

Victoria smiled, it was funny, by the fact that even suicidal instruction manual. She began to read more. The article was the following - Methods of suicide: "Drowning". Some time after the drowning of your corpse will emerge. This is due to the processes of decay with the release of gases such as hydrogen sulfide. But he will be nothing like you in life.

The body will be much larger in volume. Himself corpse also not handsome: it cadaveric spots dark purple color, the presence around the openings of the mouth and nose resistant white or light pink fine-bubble foam, airway particles of silt, algae, venous system filled with liquid blood with a small amount of dark red clots . Stomach and intestines are usually filled with liquid.

When drowning along with the water into the blood stream receives a large amount of plankton present in her penetrating virtually all tissues and organs. Then it can be detected even in the kidneys and bone marrow. Species found in the corpse-celled, crustaceans, and other representatives of the rich aquatic fauna, and their relative quantitative content can testify not only about the fact of drowning, but also about a particular body of water in which it occurred.

Surprisingly unpleasant thing that happens to drowned - a maceration, ie swelling and subsequent rejection of the body skin. Terms of occurrence and development of maceration depends on the water temperature. For example, at a temperature of 14-16 ° C, it begins after 8 hours. That is, first of fingers, and then the hands, and then from the rest, begin to flake and detach from the body pieces of skin.

After 10-20 days the hair starts to fall. If you stay in the water, the body acquires algae. This process is cyclical: algae on the body is fully updated every 3-4 weeks. It is important to note that even after the body of a drowned drowning person may be subjected to further trauma.

The causes leading to the emergence of post-mortem lesions in the water, a great variety: strikes on the ground, parts of aquatic plants and are in the water the rare, strikes rotating propellers, hydrofoils and other elements of the design of vessels, injuries hooks and various improvised means, use when searching and how to catch the corpse out of the water.

But the greatest damage may be delivered by representatives of aquatic organisms: fish, crayfish, leeches and other. To say that the corpse of a drowned man does not looks great - it does not say anything. Huge corpse to change the proportions of the face and body, often also swollen by gases associated degradation pogryzenny leeches, fish and crabs, covered in mud and seaweed - it's awful.

It is not always convenient to move a corpse, and even more ship on a stretcher. The corpse they often simply do not fit. Removing and layout of the corpse on the site may like to bring fun and even just curious onlookers - necrophilia, who also manage to give their comments interspersed with conviction. The contemplation of the corpse normal people very uncomfortable. And those who will be buried, even more so.

She was terrified after reading, but the article was not pushed her away from this option of suicide. Anyway, for her death it was the best option, and it does not matter as it will go, in every description have frightening downsides. Having read, Victoria clung to their favorite pillow, which was lying on the bed.

It included a night-light, and looking at the ceiling began to reason

Why I'm so miserable, Lord? For what you sent me so many tests? Sorry, but I could not stand them. I can not live like this, can you send me to hell for all I care, I'm tired. How can the ex-girlfriend of his brother, to marry the absolute stranger. It's not her favorite, it's his brother. Was she so desperate. Generally strange all this.

Maybe that aunt, something messed up or missed some point when telling me all this. What kind of nonsense at all. And it was necessary to me on the day of his wedding to come to the park. I wish I had gone to the sea, to start a new life. Igor got married, I saw it, he did not even come up to me, saw me, and came up.

I love him, he is everything that I have, and I for him just an empty space. Why would he even began a relationship with me, what suggested to meet, what played mnyu like a doll. Whoever he was, what would it it's not needed, I do not care. I can not live without him, I'm nothing unnecessary.

Then she began to sort through the options, what you will wear for the last time before his death, how much better to go to the beach and pier of it's best to get into the sea. She was sure that nobody will be able to save, because it will bind the feet of heavy stones.

In the morning, she was planning to buy nylon thread, and pass the last time in the places where they were with Igor to recall the happiest moments in my life.

Victoria fell asleep in his warm, soft bed, with the idea that sleep is the last time in this life. She will no longer be so bad, she will no longer be lonely, because there her family, for her death is the best option. And let people believe suicide weak and worthless man, now it is not important, someone else's opinion. She was all alone in this life, and no one had noticed.

No one saw how she suffered, and now, after the death of tomorrow, what right have people to judge her. Having paid off the night light, it is sweet to sleep. Ringing alarm clock woke her from the latter, as she seemed to sleep.

Victoria even lie down in bed, then she remembered that she still needs to go to the places where she spent the most beautiful moments in my life, and she hurried. Taking his crisp white dress with red ribbon belt, she did her hair, make up, drank a cup of strong coffee without sugar.

Time was short, Victoria went to a photo of the deceased grandmother and parents stroked frame arms and said,

Well, that's all my relatives, wait for me. I'm sorry if we have not meet, because you are certainly in heaven, and I will certainly be sent in the opposite direction.

Barely holding back tears, she abruptly turned and walked briskly toward the exit. Victoria waited for a bus at number 54, the one where she went to a meeting with Igor when he could not pick her up. The people were many, she could hardly get through the jostling people, stop, next to the park.

Victoria is a little outraged. How did she live here the last time, the last time taking the bus, and people do not behave politely! Surely no one sees it bad.