The love story I still love you

We hired a videographer to provide the court with evidence that the child is all right: dressed, shod, eating caviar .  From the local institutions "for the family and children" have caused the inspector who made the act on the conditions of .  It was planned to send all fax and send the disc later, but the fax has not passed .  As a result of all this tinsel drove my mother personally .  That's just met her there, alas, not with open arms! Distraught mother in law with her daughter in broad daylight attacked her, wrung his hands and shouting, "she stole the baby! "I tried to shove the car .  And these people are imputed to me that I was "mentally unstable" !! Maybe I'm in this life for something I do not understand? Anyway act away from her, the drive for some reason was my dad, I do not remember why it happened, but it does not matter .  My mom just called me hysterical, her heart-rending sobs through the tube, I realized that I should mosey, they now know where we are .
We birdie just walked around the market square, choose the Christmas tree, which wanted to put in our room .  Immediately bus was .  There was a series of calls: Aunt Lena to collect our bags and brought to the bus station, the sister of Krasnodar, to shelter us for a while, a lawyer, to put him on notice, and mom to somehow comfort her .  She managed to escape from them .  But this whole situation cool undermined the already stripped the nervous system, after all, and forty years of experience teaching at the School of Music in piano gift does not pass to anyone .  Well, Dad was with her, right where he was, when his mother was attacked by two half-witted woman? I do not know, it's a coincidence or the law of meanness? In general, the second court session ended again in my favor .  And I again broke off the phone, so I allowed a family to see her ex-husband with birdies, and I decided to pause .  Could I imagine that everything would turn out when you leave? No, not even my imagination could not have developed to draw a picture .  And now we have a small living my cousin in half the house, where there were only two rooms .  Birdie and the youngest child was the same age Alena, respectively - the rest we only dreamed .  But more about that later .
In a very un-winter warm day I went to get a job. And why go far, more than a dozen gardens located directly in front of the nose. I went to the first one, which was on my way out the call to another, and more generally all just took me with her hands and feet, because that's in the garden went on maternity leave just four educator. I, by the way, asked the question "I do not intend to start a second child? "And my reaction in response to their fun. I would deal with one! It remains the case for small - to make a medical book. For a week of running around the city erased heels cleaned, but there was a plus: I began to navigate it.
My first day on the job is designated only one phrase "have to run away." There was a faint hope that the work permit for the child that I was given on the condition that I will be working in the garden one day become a preferential. Which of my caregiver? Speak quietly, the children in the group once stood "on the ears," I do not know what to do with them, the benefit of "good people" in the face and head methodologist, prompted. But the overall picture is not me, I hated my job. But nobody said it would be easy ...
New Year's Eve, I met in a foreign company, ordinary guys unremarkable. The young man, whom I came to was their friend. He wanted a serious relationship, but I was annoyed his obsession, well, why call every hour and asking what I'm doing ?! In general, when I phoned my mother to urgently come to Kabardinka, where they have met the new year with the bird, then I will gladly dumped him, and did not have to invent anything. And then just do not take the phone and does not call back, it was one to learn, and all end all relations.
In Kabardinka we spent a couple of days. Together with the little daughter walking along the beach and throwing stones into the water, it was so much happiness and grief at the same time - were not allowed to swim! It is still really could not talk, just pronouncing certain words, and only "Hotsu to a woman" kept telling me every day, and I could tell her that? "Yes, of course, then, sure," when everything will calm down and begin to think sensibly. We kept hidden, because Alex came in Belorechensk to my aunt, and what do you think? After speaking with him, they began to doubt my sanity. Funny, huh? Even being married, I was amazed ability to make these people feel guilty, even when you're not in the business at all! Yes, in the gift of persuasion he can not refuse, manage weight youth must also be able, and it is always turned "on hurray! ".
We went back to her sister, they still did not have a New Year's holiday business .  Birdie full expanse with toys that she did not give Vadik .  Three years of this age, when there is only you and the world around you .  Self-centeredness! The heavy period for me was hard .  Since it was impossible to reach an agreement, and if the matter came up for the night, this age-old tantrum, well, why not just take, you close your eyes and go to sleep ?! I was "steamed" that we are living at a party and these songs, which she wound up every day, the owners of FIG were not needed .  Well now there is no one, Christmas .  Birdie was busy with toys, quietly humming the TV, and I hung on the Internet .  Vela intimate conversations with "other" distance familiarity with which is supported by more than six months .  With those from out of town, to communicate easier, they do not require a personal meeting .  We discussed my feelings for Vita and general situation .  "Write it", "what to write? "," He is not chased you, you yourself went " .  Indeed .  Herself .  Our Tanya crying, even if you throw a boy, our first throw Tanya because Tanya bitch .  Maybe about me, I do not know .  Honestly, I do not remember what I sent to him, but the bottom line was one - "I still love you" .  When I read the answer, I could not believe his eyes - "I do" .  Inside was a torn .  "You say that I'm just like me", "something I began once more," but now prove to me that I myself all up!
A few days later we phoned for a long time talking about everything and nothing. I asked him whether it is possible again to enter the apartment. The words "no" I have not heard, said that it is necessary to wait until February, there are other people live. Well, this is magical, because my sister's husband had been with us the bird extremely pleased. The first salary was planned in February. The money that I could get, coming to its logical conclusion. To live with us Minor was actually nowhere, so any shelter suited me. January came to an end. Communication with Victor held only by SMS, we have never met, for whatever reasons, the meeting was postponed and shifts constantly, giving the impression that I just treat brain. What for? You do not want to have anything to do with me, and tell me what's the problem ?! Every day, ask this question "what is the problem? "
Birdie became very ill .  In the morning, she could not open my eyes, so they were stuck together with pus: conjunctivitis or something like that, cough, runny nose, and to top it, when I looked in her throat, purulent tonsillitis .  I began to panic, money for medicine was not .  Alain she could give of his reserves, but how well can continue? The period of my stay in their house came to an end .  Sanya, the husband's sister, has openly snarled at us .  I hoped only Vitya, that here he would call, and everything will be fine! Other options I have not even considered, and they were .  But I came to understand that after all converged wedge white light on the man .  And why Victor was playing another role of the bad "boy", his sms were "biting behavior" of content, more and more it hurts .  And when I sent him a brief note to "all bad, Birdie is ill, and we have nowhere to live," he received a "receptive" response "to fuck" .  Why did you let the hope? Then to throw? Would say is not there, I would have understood .  WHAT FOR? Probably, he had reasons to do so, he is in no way obliged me, and everything else - my personal problems .
I cried, and my sister with me. On weekends, they left with the children to their parents in Krymsk, and I set a condition so that tomorrow, when they come back, I was not here. It was necessary to evaporate into nothing. I can not say that sitting idly by, I was looking for options, but they all boil down to the fact that I did not want to live with someone else. I gasped in despair. Winter is cleared up, the thermometer showed -20 average. Small sick, no money at all, what sort of drugs, and we are on the street. If the door is closed, there must be an emergency exit, but if the door is closed, then climb out the window, and in the case of closed windows, there is always a ventilator, therefore - there is always a way out. I saved my mother, she agreed with his distant relative, and she resolved to stay with them for two weeks. Well, in two weeks you can think of something, as long as the rights of the poor families we stayed with the bird and her mother, who had come to nurse a small, near the northern bridge.
That was the long and cold winter in my life. Wind to the bone, so that I did not save any of three knitted sweaters or coat on the thin padding polyester, the other clothes I had. Have you ever seen the old lady able to run? It is amusing spectacle, as if she did not have time for this trolley, the next will have to wait about half an hour and the air at six in the morning is so fresh, that ten minutes was enough to warm the icy as the tram, where I get to work. My partner in the group, too, was going on maternity leave and has been constantly remained in hospital sheets. I worked seven days a week from seven in the morning until seven at night, five days a week, until my mother treated the bird. I can not imagine how I would have with it was wound through the city with transfers?
One of the unexpected output when my smenschitsa deigned to come to work, I wrote to him "feel hurt unnecessary" .  I almost wanted to hear from him, "Yes, I do not need" .  Stop waiting and hoping, to break this ridiculous thread that has caused me physical pain .  When I read the response, the tears rolled down from my eyes .  How much water? "I need you!!! "Then why do we still have not met? I did not ask the stars from the sky and the moon, I just want you to see to understand .  Understand yourself, can I come up with this love? But in reality nothing, was just a good, no, sex magic, and nothing more? .   I was torn by contradictions every day, hour, minute, moment, .  My soul is insanely lunging towards him and with the same madness longed to forget .  I kept thinking about it, trying unsuccessfully to understand what motivates them and what I have found in this man .  Why so painfully drawn to him? More in this life I do not interested .
Two weeks came to an end, my mother returned to Krymsk, and I collected a bag of belongings and laptop, put him in the stroller bird, thanked for the hospitality his second cousin aunt.
- Marin, and where you're going now? - She asked me.
- Wait until kindergarten, Head authorized, - I said calmly.
- Oh, God, in the garden, perhaps, the heat - with concern in her voice she said. The key word "probably": hot water and heating included from eight in the morning till five in the evening, the savings should be economical. In my location in his spare time was extremely icy water from the tap. But the work does not have to walk down to the bedrooms - and is already at work. And Birdie completed its adaptation in the garden is now a place where we slept, she called home, and his group has identified as his work. Another, but very significant, advantage of our homelessness was low it is that a meal was no interruption. The news that the institution appeared Convenience residents, staff flown to the middle of the second week. Lyuba, nurse with an older group, took me to shelter, around people, and next weekend I enjoyed the hot water and a comfortable bed.
Things that were in the area north bridges, helped me carry Vovk. We have close contact, despite the fact that he was a girl. Himself he called "a male dog", and it suited me, because I myself was still that "bitch" - loved one, slept with another, went to the movies with a third.
And as life began to improve again. But I got a call from an unknown number, in anticipation of evil news, I responded to an incoming call. It was Olga Vladimirovna, the inspector for the family and children, which led to my job at the first trial. It was she who told me that my ex-husband filed a lawsuit against the decision of the court in the Crimean Regional Court of the Krasnodar Territory. He expected me to present a few pieces of paper from work. Fear again settled in me, these people could expect anything. At the beginning of the year Leshina car was set on fire, and they are, without batting an eye, the investigation pointed to my parents. God be their judge! Prepared the work and a medical report, which said the state of health of my child, I went "into the hands of the cruel beast," anything funny, I was really scared!
Vitya we exchanging occasional sms-kami, and he wrote to me only when I reminded him of himself. "I'm scared," as always I started the first conversation, "not ssy," he answered me, which translated to the online Japanese means "be quiet, as the reflection of a lotus in the water surface of the water of a mountain lake." The fact that I did not meet stuttered, why? After all, if I really need him, he will choose the time. I sincerely believed it had hoped ... and waited. And with asinine persistence continued their attempts to forget it.

With ex-husband, we met in the building of the regional court .  He began to treat me gently, trying to divert the conversation in the right direction it .  My position has always been straightforward - you'll see the child, just leave me alone, do not meddle in my life! By the way, despite the fact that we both were present, the court held without us, Alex and his lawyer beguiled offices .  After two hours of waiting, I broke down and went to clarify when a hearing will be held on our .  The secretary told me that the meeting had already closed, and then asked with a mysterious smile, "both sides here? Then wait " .  The trick was that the Crimean judge, to whom they complained to the regional court, was also from Krasnodar .  You can not imagine how smeared Lesha and his lawyer! Even words are not given a say! "The court's decision can not be appealed! " .  The Third Court again in my favor .  And my paper did not even glance .  After we had talked for a long time, he asked about the possibility of seeing her daughter, and assured me that no one else it will not be selected .  Well, a girl need paternal love, otherwise it may result in a heap of problems in adolescence .  At your own risk, I agreed, after three days he took little for a few days .  She was so happy when I saw my grandmother and dad, and I roared, I do not know why .  Through their own snot Lesha tried to explain that Birdie pacifier and a bottle has dropped .  He always fell into confusion, when I cried, because it makes it extremely rare and very suddenly .  And now extremely embarrassed by my emotions gave me Ptashkin documents and medical records .  That's good, you can now register with the clinic .